All by myself

Today was an unscheduled test of will. My running partner was unable to join me and I had a choice to make, either run alone or give in to the desire to take the day off.

After much pondering I ran by myself. It was not as much fun because I focused on the wrong things during my run. First there was the fact that I was still very tired from several days of bad sleep and a new job, then there was the pain in my ankle from having sprained it several years back, and finally the fact that I was a "fattie" out there in my shorts and tank bouncing all over the place not setting any kind of speed records.

I almost cut myself short at the end of my run, then realized I had plenty of time to get showered for work and the only person I was cheating was myself if I quit. I was enjoying myself during the run, not to the extent that I would like to have, but I think that will come in time.

At work today I over heard another employee saying that they were tired and stressed so they might "go for a run" to clear their head. It felt good to hear someone say that, knowing that a clear head could come from running and not just nap taking.

I am looking forward to w2d3 on Friday and really hope Catie can join me, but if not I know I can do it alone. At some point  (still undecided when) I will be a runner... I am stronger and  healthier than I was four weeks ago, and to any of you who are still waiting for the right time to start something that time is now. Do it for YOU, do it because YOU are ready, do it because YOU deserve it, do it for YOUR time, YOUR life, YOUR love.

Each day is a struggle and challenge. I will conquer it, will you?